effects of adoption

There was a certain thing that happened in my life that defiantly changed everything for me. the thing I'm talking about is adoption. this definatley wasnt the best day in my life in fact it was probably one of the worst days of my life and one thing that hurts one of the most is the fact that when your brother and sister find out all of this crap they start calling you there half brother and dont respect you and it hurts because you feel like you failed and they no longer look up to you and it really in reality destroysd you from the inside now you see when i was a younger boy i found out kind of a hard way that the man i had been calling my father for so many years was actually not. I didn't really know how to react when I had found this out it defiantly was not what i wanted to hear and i don't really know how to explain it but it was as if all my insecurities and fears suddenly came to life and i was just kind of being pulled in the undertow of it all this was one of the turns in my life that had stricken me hard a very perfect example of a hard blow to a young mans life and when you are at such a young age it can change someone either for the better or for the worse and in my situation it was almost certain it was for the worse my grades started to drop my attitude with my family was different i felt as though i was being pushed away or maybe i was pushing myself away i couldn't tell at the time and i may have burned a few bridges and i may have taken things wrong but in all honesty when a man is trying to find out who he is and then he finds out the one person he looked up to and felt one with wasn't actually part of him it kind of sends a boys life into jeopardy now I'm just kind of lost and don't really know where to go or turn even to this day i havnt really found myself to who i really am and my true potential every morning when i wake up it's kind of like this feeling that says well what am i going to find out about myself today.sometimes it really bugs me when  my family treats me like i shouldn't be there or be part in our family activities just because of this and it hurts allot because it's not like i really had a choice but it doesnt matter i guess you can't really change peoples opinion but you can try and make them see the greater light in things and let them decide for themselves what they want and hope that they can agree with it which maybe this is what i need to do i need to just sit down with those i don't get along with in my family and find out what the difference is if i did something to push them away or if it is becuase of this adoption anyways i guess one of the things to learn from this is to respect people even when there veiws are different or even for the sake of respect when you dont see eye to eye show respect because when you don't show others respect that how can you ask for it or even expect it i had a old friend that would alwasy be rude and say mean things and then one day a few kids got together and shut him up and he was mad becuase it was younger kids and they wernt showing him the respect he thought he deserved but in reality they probably still gave him too much of it anyways if this sounds like a sad sob story oh poor picked on greg it's not or least that isnt what im aiming for i am just trying to show some of my feelings through this assignment becuase they it actually really pissess me off when family's do that of when children get treated different becuase they got adopted and in fact it's gotten to such a bad poiint that my parents are thinking about a trial seperation becuase me and my mom arent trusted in the family and no one ever wants to spend much time with either of us when we actually did try to talk to someone in the family they told us that it's just because they are way to busy but one thing i dont get is when they need something they expect us to just put our life on hold to go and help htem out this actually is probably one of tyhe things that makes me angry the most  when my mom isnt even shown respect
In conclusion I just want to say that i have made some mistakes and I know im not perfect but when it come to family don't single people out just becuase of something stupid like adoption inf act tryt o make the bond stronger don't let it fade and die just becuase they are not related to you by blood still welcome them in and don't judge. there is a old saying that says "Dont judge lest ye be judged yourself"